This section, Part 3, has not been officially released to the ConserveLiberty resource. In fact, it doesn't even rank as a "scratch draft". What you may see here is simply a "stub out" of some of what might be developed for the official release. And, some of what you see here may actually be deleted altogether.

This "pre-scratch" is here to give you an idea of what "may" be coming next. If interested, come back later and see if I've made any progress on this section.

Part 3 will not be released until after Part 2, Back Home is released.

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This section (Libido) is considered by ConserveLiberty to be released. It is no longer a rough draft.

Interestingly, at some point (once home for a few weeks) I realized that my libido was not what it had been. It's not something I generally thought much about. However, it is also true that before the accident, if I went a few days "without any", I generally had begun contemplating when might be the next time we'd "interrupt the pause." Now, I realized that even after more than a month, I really wasn't "looking ahead to next time." At all. More accurately, I wasn't actually thinking about it. At all.

Even after "much more" than a month.

Please note: The topic of sexual attraction is one that for many reasons can be controversial or "sensitive" for various different people and cultures. Keep in mind that ConserveLiberty is simply interested in the Filters that govern our perceptions and behaviors. We are built with what we are built with.

My wife and I have a good relationship. We're friendly and supportive. We have had our issues from time to time, but not more after the accident than at any other time during our 30+ years of marriage. Thus, a change in the relationship really had nothing to do with the decrease in my sexual libido. It just wasn't there. And, since it wasn't there, I didn't actually long for it to be there.

On the other hand, had a decrease in my sexual libido resulted in a change in the relationship? Don't know. And, I really didn't think much about that either.

Note → If Sexual Libido is offline, because it hasn't yet rebooted, then one isn't concerned about missing something that one isn't missing. Get it? ← Note

I did think about it, but only long enough (not long) to decide I wasn't interested in thinking about it much. My Memory Recall function (i.e. recalls what has been remembered, often without much intentional effort) had returned enough by mid-December that I was aware there was a difference. That there was a difference was something that was interesting for me to realize or comprehend. But I had no anxiety about it.

While I may get into trouble with my wife for mentioning this, I will anyway because it reflects reality. Probably reality for most "normal people" (whatever that means). And, I can vouch for most "normal males" (I say.) And with regard to using my experiences to understand what really was (is) happening with my Cognitive Reboot, it is important that various aspects of how I experience (and experienced) reality be documented.

Truth → Normally, when I meet other women that I find attractive, I am also aware of the sexual component that is a part of that. I am never moved to act on that (although others, dialed up differently, are.) I simply recognize their sexual appeal as such. I don't just notice it. I am usually moved by it. I understand that if situations were much different, if things were otherwise comfortable, I would be compelled to enable a "likelihood of a sexual encounter sometime in the future" to move forward. However, because I am wired the way that I am wired, while I may recognize "the natural attraction", I don't do anything about it. I've always regarded that as a rational decision that falls out logically for any number of reasons. But it is a decision I do make, and I've made it so many times by now that it is often done by rote without much thinking. ← Truth

There are many who might disagree that (the Truth above) is a natural reality for many males (or people in general) ... but at the very least it is how I perceive and interact with reality as I experience it. And, it has worked out great. All know that they can trust me. And, I know that I can be trusted. It all works.

Yet, at some point I noticed that even other women who would have certainly elicited that response within me were not eliciting that response within me. As for my wife, she had always seemed to elicit that response within me, and yet I noticed that that response was not happening. And, it wasn't because something about "the other" had changed. Something about me had changed.

Important → Sexual Libido was offline. ← Important

Getting back to the notion of "subroutines", the sexual portion of my libido subroutine, the Libido Personality Spectrum Tapestry, was apparently not executing, and hadn't been executing since the accident, And since it wasn't firing, I wasn't missing anything. Sexually.

At some point I either recognized or understood there was a difference in libido. And, I wondered if it would come back, and if so, how long until it did? But since it was offline, I was like, "Whatever." And, my wife didn't advocate "for any" either.

Now, at some point after the beginning of the New Year, the sexual portion of my libido did come back. As with all the other subroutines, the Sexual Libido Personality Ensemble reboot didn't result in the return of full libido all at once. It came back gradually. And, all has come along nicely.

No stories need be told. (TMI)

→ Since this "journal" is about the various cognitive subroutines as they come back on line, one after the other, each the prerequisite for the next coming back online first ... some interesting issues come to mind.

What components make up the Sexual Libido Personality Spectrum Ensemble? This ensemble is part of the Libido Tapestry. Is the Sexual Libido Filter (for short) also something that has multiple components like the other filters, each component likely dialed a little differently with each individual (or a lot?)

And what might those components be? ←

Also note: I released, revised, and re-released versions of a more comprehensive description of The Libido Tapestry before releasing Part 3 (Yonder) of this chapter. I do believe it is True that not all the parts that make up the Libido Tapestry were offline for me. The way "Ensemble" works, you need all its components to be working for the Ensemble to be working normally. If just one part is offline, the entire Ensemble may not be functioning at all. On the other hand, an ensemble of Ensembles make up a Tapestry. One or more of those Ensembles can be offline and whatever is left of the Tapestry of Ensembles remaining will function as it can.

I don't know which other part or parts of my Libido Tapestry were online or not at the time that my Sexual Libido Ensemble was offline.

→ The Libido section was last updated 28 Sep 2017 18:15 PDT ←

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• Little by little, more of me came back online as I cascaded with friends.
  
  
• Click for a reminder of Cascades (from Nov-Dec 2015), Part 2, (Back Home).
  
  

→ This Cascades section was last updated 23 Jun 2017 16:10 PDT ←

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• I'm tryin' to think, but nothing happens!
  
  
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→ The Word Recall section was last updated 23 Jun 2017 16:10 PDT ←

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• Does one's sense of smell impact our cognitive "perception" of how we regard that which is with us?
  
  I may not know what it is, but I know what it is not. And I know why again. Stay tuned.
  
  
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→ The Olfactory Deficit section was last updated 23 Jun 2017 16:10 PDT ←

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Click for a reminder of Spirituality (from Nov-Dec 2015), Part 2, (Back Home).

• That bright light that so many say they recall seeing after they died but then came back to life to tell about it?
  
  I may not know what it is, but I know what it is not. And why. Stay tuned.
  
  
• The first personally challenging question that I was asked, weeks after I got back home, was, "Why did you survive? And 'He' didn't."

  [ I believe this question is a result of innovative thinking using an active Critical Thinking Personality Spectrum Ensemble. If you got placed here via a URL from [ here ] then fine. You can return to the page you came from by using your browser's "BACK" function. Otherwise, you can ignore this intro paragraph if you'd like. ]

  Of course, I didn't have an answer for that. From my perspective, there was no answer for that. I just did. And "He" didn't. My accident unfolded as it did, the care I was given unfolded as it did, my health and healing capabilities were what they were, it all just matched up. And I was grateful for all that wound up as it did. Even if it was not all understandable.
  
  People in the abstract ask this type of question all the time. Most people instinctively believe there is a purpose to their lives and they want to understand what that is.
  
  There is one "for sure" purpose for all living organisms that are going to continue to live (which happens via the progression of the lineage, for all the living.) That is to reproduce. (More later)
  
  Yet I actually have come to understand my "other" purpose beyond the default purpose to reproduce. Why "I have been put here," so to speak.
  
  Most importantly, the conceptual question, "Why have I been put here?" is misleading and generates a misunderstanding of The Facts from the get go. From my perspective, there is no "Why?" While I and other living things may be sentient, it does not follow that my sentience is anything other than an amazing phenomenon generated via the nearly incomprehensible evolution of the living. Rather, there are more simply the questions, "Why am I the way that I am?" and "What have I been built to be?"
  
  From my perspective, of course!
  
  What I am going to tell you cannot be validated. It can not be proven. And thus, it falls to the Spiritual. Check out The Providence Relationship Filter for additional positioning. And check out ConserveLiberty's definition of Spirituality.

  I am here (meaning, "have been built") simply to articulate The Truth as best as I am able. I will make mistakes. It is my sincere objective to minimize my mistakes to as few as possible. Which means, I am forever skeptical, and reexamine. Always. I actually enjoy embracing and reevaluating everything I think I understand, looking for more accuracy. I believe how I have been built is instinctive to me. I'm wired for it.
  
  However, that is all my "built for" role is. It is not my role to convince anybody that I am articulating The Truth. I may show a little proof now and then so that the natural skeptic might find some credibility to get started with. But, if I am not successful convincing someone else that I am articulating The Truth, that is not actually my concern.
  
  In fact, that is how most communications unfold with one another anyway. Skeptics are true Truth Seekers. They are my actual target audience. What skeptic ever believes another without question? Those who do believe without question are not true Truth Seekers (although they may themselves believe that they are) and so will often believe non-truth without question. The gullible are not my target audience. If they were, they would be a huge waste of time regarding my role to articulate The Truth to those that can embrace it, skeptically.

  Yet, I wouldn't know who the true Truth Seekers are unless I validated them as such. To find them, I ask them what they think. I then watch how they respond. When finding Truth Seekers, their answers are often not as important as the way they go about arriving at their answers.
  
  Which fundamentally gets us back to Spirituality. And the need to address this topic more directly.
  
  Stay tuned.
  

Global Time - The Ability to Recognize Local Time (to know the time simply by looking at the sky).

Remember, this function is separate from:

• A Sense of Time
• A Sense of Order (with Time, chronology)

...which may require them to be working before The Ability to Recognize Local Time can come online.

For a preliminary introduction to a "normal" experience of this function when it is "online", and its "lack of manifestation" when it is "offline", from the perspective of The Cognitive Reboot, click here - the reminder (from Nov-Dec 2015), Part 2, (Back Home).

My ability to discern "local time" "intuitively" simply by having a view of the sky DID come back sometime in February 2016. On suspecting that, I asked a friend to randomly (sometime "out of the blue" within the entire afternoon we would be spending with each other) ask me for the time. I did not tell him why I wanted him to do that. When he did, I answered, and I was within 12 minutes. I was 12 minutes early! (a few months earlier, my errors had always been 3-4 hours too early!)

On seeing that I had estimated so correctly, I proclaimed to him that this now felt like the best day I had had in months!

Over the next several months, my ability to discern local time, even without access to clocks for the entire day, continued to improve. As of July 2017, my accuracy is consistently within 5-10 minutes. Even while traveling.

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I have had additional insights into my general ability both to have an innate comprehension of local time regardless of the time zone I am in, but also my distinct lack of jet lag regardless of when I have traveled, my direction of travel, where I have traveled to, or how long it has been since I have traveled.

The explanation has to do with the notions of:

• Diurnal rhythm filters,
• Habituation filters, and
• How I am dialed up with regard to these Filters and the differences in my default settings and the default settings of others.

Much of the "living domain" has can be observed to behave and manifest itself biochemically within the context of a Circadian Rhythm. These rhythms are generally synchronized to a 24 hour cycle. That cycle corresponds to the length of a day on the Earth (where ALL LIFE (so far) has been observed.)

From an evolutionary perspective, a circadian rhythm is useful. The environment around us changes in a manner that also follows a general cycle, and those many cycles also approximately follow a rhythm in synch with the day/night cycles that occur every single day on the Planet Earth.

Everything we do is adapted our environment. Changes in environment require changes in what we are able to do. The entire living process on this planet is thus impacted diurnally. Being able to recognize those changes and anticipate them with regard to the biochemical, physiological, and cognitive responses that may be required can often be critically selective.

Thus, most of the living have diurnal cycles. Most humans have diurnal cycles. I HAVE DIURNAL CYCLES.

Since "jet lag" can be associated with the "diurnal cycles" we are manifesting at the current moment, and I have "diurnal cycles," then why do I not experience Jet lag?

I am able to shift my diurnal cycles quickly, however they need to be shifted relevant to where I actually am. Others have more difficulty shifting their cycles. While it may take others days, my shifts occurs in moments! My diurnal cycles shift so quickly that I simply have no experience of "Jet lag" even though others that I am traveling with do.

Jet lag seems normal to others. Not having jet lag seems normal to me.

Another way of considering the same phenomenon is that perhaps others become more strongly habituated into their diurnal cycles than I do. Or ... perhaps others are addicted to their diurnal cycles, and I am not.

When my time zone shifts, I readily shift my circadian rhythm. Naturally. The only thing that shifts is the timing. The rest of the actual rhythm stays the same. The cycle itself simply shifts. It turns out that I can do this in at least two ways:

• Stay aware of the actual location of the sun, and allow my diurnal cycles to shift appropriately with it. Thus, my cycles will shift once solar location is validated. My cycles depend on the sun. My biology doesn't actually care what time the clock says.
  
  
• Decide to shift my cycle consciously and cognitively. For example, when I know that I will be going to a new time zone ahead of time, I will shift (using imagination and belief) into the relevant patterns ahead of time so that when I "get there" my cycle is already synchronized.
  

Question: I have now described a "difference". Some might see this difference as a "defect", meaning a loss of a function that most normally experience. So, which demographic has lost (or gained) a function. Is not having a jet lag due to a loss of function? Or, is having jet lag due to a gain of function (diurnal cycle addiction)? Or is THAT due to a loss of function (the ability to be diurnal cycle flexible, unaddicted?)

Where one comes down on this is likely subjective, if one comes down on this from this perspective at all. For ConserveLiberty, its simply a difference.

Check back. I will address this section as Part 3 is gradually released. While sections above ARE released, this section is currently in a non-released (rough draft) status. Among anticipated topics:

• Alcohol Tolerance (continued)
  
  Getting back to normal, but probably a little less so.
  
  
• Creative Thinking (continued)
  
  
• A Relationship with the Unfolding (various aspects)
  
  
• Eating, weight gain, habituated behavior, altered instinctive behavior, or altered metabolism?

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